Did you ever feel so tired that you felt...retarded? indisposed? drunk with exhaustion?

I have been tired but never so tired I felt like not only was I not in my body, I had no idea where to locate my body.

We failed at acquiring something we wanted this week. The only thing that is weird about it is that it is unusual. Usually we know what we want and we find a way to make. it. happen.
Not this time.
I want to believe that if it wasn't meant to be then life has taught us that forcing something is a huge mistake. There's no question you can force a round peg in a square hole, but there's also no question that there will be damage and regrets. The right things are not forced, they are gifts freely given.

But I'm still so let down.
Hope doesn't know anything about square holes.